poetry: i cannot breathe

i cannot breathe....

i am denied air, food, water
i am denied something that is vital to me

before you came into my life, before i loved you
i didn't understand. i didn't know it was missing
now, there is a gaping void

the world spins and continues on
the rain falls from the sky
i choke on fresh air as i walk.. i stumble...

i fall
 

i cannot fall...
 

others rely on me

my shoulders must be steel

without the support i need
to be denied the ability to offer that support in return

i fall, i cannot breathe
 

i get up

i always get up

hide in my cave
buy the groceries
scream silently into the night

hope it gets better

i cannot breathe...